After some introspection....I can see what has happened and I feel awful and absolutely ashamed (not the first time). I admit I don't always know what to do with the angst, and this place became an echo chamber that I think I mistook for purely a venting space as opposed to a place where other people are actually looking for good analysis. All this time I'VE been part of the problem for why folks leave. I've been the mutee (ironically getting annoyed with others for being debs...lol). One thing becoming clear is I am indeed the one in the wrong. I'm becoming part of the negativity...and that's wrong.
I have no idea why I am the way I am on here...for some reason tracking snow on here brings out the absolute worst in me (probably not to do with any of you, though). I think what would be disappointment on one particular day or two of a missed storm is compounded by days of tracking before hand...increasing the mental investment and eventual "crash". And when you're already feeling crappy out it, then you come back on here and the negative emotions are reinforced in the echo chamber...compounding your own! An unhealthy cycle...
Now, am I still worried about future snow prospects? Yes (not sure I'll fully believe we can still get a legit hit of snow until we get it. Not the most logical, but that's where my brain is at right now)--However, because of this, I'm learning to enjoy and be grateful for what we do get. (Never had I been more excited for flurries than the other day...that's when I knew I was beginning to see things a little differently, lol)
All that to say...I am truly sorry for any damage I've done to the enjoyment of this forum. I will try to do better and be better.