I hope you never figure out how I'm doing it because the only way to find out is to reach such depths that you simply can't live with yourself otherwise, given the circumstances of your life. No choice. I may write a book one day... crazy journey.
Thanks, bud. It never goes away...you just hone your ability to cope more as time passes. It pissed me off and motivated me to get my life together. Six years of sobriety later...
I think this one is dead for me, as far as big impact goes.